My Feelings

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It’s as if all of my motivation for writing has vanished with the new year.

I have a lot to say, yet I tend to keep it to myself. When I go home from work, there’s no one to talk to about my day, I just live in my own thoughts.

Instead, I find myself romanticising things and people, which always leads to toxicity. I hate becoming emotionally attached, but at the same time, I simply want to feel cared for, you know?

I’ve realised that sometimes we’re the ones that sabotage positive relationships and situations. It’s like a never-ending loop of stressing over every aspect, waiting impatiently for a reply that may never come, swearing never to seek out again, and then getting all excited when they finally do. And then it all starts from scratch, leaving me empty and disappointed.

Right now, I’m simply trying to focus on self-care and become the best version of myself. I’m sick of feeling inferior to others and continually placing them on a pedestal.

Have you ever felt like this? It’s quite tiring.

Those are the things that have been racing through my mind lately, and I just needed to get them out. I’m typing this down during my lunch break, feeling fairly exhausted. But I’ll be more consistent. I miss you all.

With love,

Sumaya

❤